Not as easy as I thought

This is harder than I thought it would be.

Before I started, I thought words would just come spilling. My fingers would just be flying across the keyboard and deep thoughts would appear on the screen.

Whats stopping me is , in part, my fear of what others (guess that would be you, dear reader) will think. This, too, like my letting things go, is an on going problem. In many ways I have not card about what people think. I married someone outside my own race. I kept my "maiden" name. I often act like a fool in public. But when it comes to letting my opinion be known I freeze. Same thing when it comes to "tooting my own horn". Am I smart enough? Interesting and capable enough? These are the thoughts that plague me.

Hopefully creative expression and therapy are not mutually exclusive.